Lost, I guess.

So, yesterday, I got to be told that my stimming “doesn’t make people feel bad” just because I can control it. So it isn’t a tick. I guess I’m going to try not to self soothe all day today. I’m then going to consider sharing the results. I feel like ass. I’ve already had to […]

Desperation but it feels like depression

I don’t feel like existing today. I cried for a good 20 minutes earlier. It didn’t make me feel much better, but it did feel good to cry. I’m slowly getting more and more frustrated. My partner’s job was supposed to email him on Monday with his start date. He has yet to get that […]

Exhausted

This morning I woke up tired. Sometimes this happens. It wasn’t awful today, but after my love left for errands, I decided to try a hypnosis video. I’ve tried them before and they haven’t really worked that well for me. However, this time I actually felt connected to the person and really tried to relax. […]

Don’t Isolate Yourself

Recently, I was able to have an hour or so to myself. So, I took advantage of it how anyone would. I literally sang for most of it, cleaned dishes, and had a small amount of calm down time. The singing was great because I haven’t been able to do so since we got here. […]

Obligations and Forced Situations

I don’t write much at all anymore. Not here. Not Tumblr. Not anywhere. It does feel good when I write because then I can get my thoughts out without someone else constantly trying to tell me that what I’m feeling is wrong. Or too “dramatic”. After much thought and consideration, think I might be interested […]