So, yesterday, I got to be told that my stimming “doesn’t make people feel bad” just because I can control it. So it isn’t a tick. I guess I’m going to try not to self soothe all day today. I’m then going to consider sharing the results. I feel like ass. I’ve already had to […]Read More Lost, I guess.
So, the last couple of days have been the worst. My cat got ill and has decided to go to the bathroom all over my stuff multiple times. I was told there wouldn’t actually be children here overnight. There were. And then there have been more here all day today. And their father is working […]Read More LOUD
I don’t feel like existing today. I cried for a good 20 minutes earlier. It didn’t make me feel much better, but it did feel good to cry. I’m slowly getting more and more frustrated. My partner’s job was supposed to email him on Monday with his start date. He has yet to get that […]Read More Desperation but it feels like depression
This morning I woke up tired. Sometimes this happens. It wasn’t awful today, but after my love left for errands, I decided to try a hypnosis video. I’ve tried them before and they haven’t really worked that well for me. However, this time I actually felt connected to the person and really tried to relax. […]Read More Exhausted
Recently, I was able to have an hour or so to myself. So, I took advantage of it how anyone would. I literally sang for most of it, cleaned dishes, and had a small amount of calm down time. The singing was great because I haven’t been able to do so since we got here. […]Read More Don’t Isolate Yourself
I don’t write much at all anymore. Not here. Not Tumblr. Not anywhere. It does feel good when I write because then I can get my thoughts out without someone else constantly trying to tell me that what I’m feeling is wrong. Or too “dramatic”. After much thought and consideration, think I might be interested […]Read More Obligations and Forced Situations
Recently, the pick-a-card readings that I have been watching have been pointing to something big and unexpected happening soon. I’m going to be honest, it does make me a bit nervous, but in a good way. So, before writing any more, I’d like to get this out of the way. HEY UNIVERSE!!! I AM SO […]Read More I Can’t Calm Down