Is That A Challenge?

Lately it’s been feeling like my almost-in-laws are attempting to challenge literally everything about myself. I feel like it’s unprompted and kind of mean spirited sometimes. I haven’t gone down on a girl, so I “can’t claim lesbianism” which, no, obviously, because I am not a lesbian, I am engaged to her son. I have […]

Lost, I guess.

So, yesterday, I got to be told that my stimming “doesn’t make people feel bad” just because I can control it. So it isn’t a tick. I guess I’m going to try not to self soothe all day today. I’m then going to consider sharing the results. I feel like ass. I’ve already had to […]

Desperation but it feels like depression

I don’t feel like existing today. I cried for a good 20 minutes earlier. It didn’t make me feel much better, but it did feel good to cry. I’m slowly getting more and more frustrated. My partner’s job was supposed to email him on Monday with his start date. He has yet to get that […]

Exhausted

This morning I woke up tired. Sometimes this happens. It wasn’t awful today, but after my love left for errands, I decided to try a hypnosis video. I’ve tried them before and they haven’t really worked that well for me. However, this time I actually felt connected to the person and really tried to relax. […]

Don’t Isolate Yourself

Recently, I was able to have an hour or so to myself. So, I took advantage of it how anyone would. I literally sang for most of it, cleaned dishes, and had a small amount of calm down time. The singing was great because I haven’t been able to do so since we got here. […]

Why would you want medication?

I guess the answer to that question stems from where you grew up. As I was sitting here reading up on Autism, ADHD, and other conditions that I could very well have, I realized something. I don’t understand why someone wouldn’t want to medicate themselves. But I don’t think that it stems from hating the […]