Is That A Challenge?

Lately it’s been feeling like my almost-in-laws are attempting to challenge literally everything about myself. I feel like it’s unprompted and kind of mean spirited sometimes. I haven’t gone down on a girl, so I “can’t claim lesbianism” which, no, obviously, because I am not a lesbian, I am engaged to her son. I have […]

LOUD

So, the last couple of days have been the worst. My cat got ill and has decided to go to the bathroom all over my stuff multiple times. I was told there wouldn’t actually be children here overnight. There were. And then there have been more here all day today. And their father is working […]

Desperation but it feels like depression

I don’t feel like existing today. I cried for a good 20 minutes earlier. It didn’t make me feel much better, but it did feel good to cry. I’m slowly getting more and more frustrated. My partner’s job was supposed to email him on Monday with his start date. He has yet to get that […]

Exhausted

This morning I woke up tired. Sometimes this happens. It wasn’t awful today, but after my love left for errands, I decided to try a hypnosis video. I’ve tried them before and they haven’t really worked that well for me. However, this time I actually felt connected to the person and really tried to relax. […]

Don’t Isolate Yourself

Recently, I was able to have an hour or so to myself. So, I took advantage of it how anyone would. I literally sang for most of it, cleaned dishes, and had a small amount of calm down time. The singing was great because I haven’t been able to do so since we got here. […]

Obligations and Forced Situations

I don’t write much at all anymore. Not here. Not Tumblr. Not anywhere. It does feel good when I write because then I can get my thoughts out without someone else constantly trying to tell me that what I’m feeling is wrong. Or too “dramatic”. After much thought and consideration, think I might be interested […]

I Can’t Calm Down

Recently, the pick-a-card readings that I have been watching have been pointing to something big and unexpected happening soon. I’m going to be honest, it does make me a bit nervous, but in a good way. So, before writing any more, I’d like to get this out of the way. HEY UNIVERSE!!! I AM SO […]

Why would you want medication?

I guess the answer to that question stems from where you grew up. As I was sitting here reading up on Autism, ADHD, and other conditions that I could very well have, I realized something. I don’t understand why someone wouldn’t want to medicate themselves. But I don’t think that it stems from hating the […]

Inspiration When You Aren’t Where You Want To Be

Since getting kicked out of our house, I haven’t felt creative at all. It’s rare for me to even feel happy. Things have slowly been getting better, but I’m still struggling. They are nice about my issues, but it seems like no one ever has enough time. I’m being told that I need to be […]

A Good Sleep

I almost slept for 24 hours within the last day or so. I woke up at around 2 P.M. today, and went to bed around 7 P.M. yesterday. Thanksgiving was yesterday of course, and I have not been able to get the sleep I need lately, so I’m really not surprised that I needed to […]